I Want To Fall In Love Again

I want to fall in love again, hoping to see you as my prince charming, holding my hand on the trip to Neverland. I want to fall in love as if it’s the first time, gazing deeply into your eyes, holding my breath, finding the perfect spot for our first kiss. I want to fall in love as deeply as I can, even if flowers seem foolish, we can try with you asking me to close my eyes and surprise me? It never gets old.

I want to see you as the one who would go to war or get into a silly fight at a club, just to protect me from all those boys. I want to fall in love with you, reliving our memories over and over again, not wanting to come home too soon, living every day as if there’s no tomorrow. You kissing my forehead a thousand times, every 15 minutes, it’s okay.

I want to stay in a room filled with bed sheets, cherishing every second, making our own heaven last forever. Let’s be the stars all day, so the sky never turns dark. I want to fall in love with you again, even if our fights fuck up the day, and even if you don’t hold my hand while driving me home, which I really hate. Then I question if I can live with you until the end of the world.

But today, there are no clouds. It’s getting dark, and storms are trying to dampen our mood. I feel like I’m in hell, pouring out all my emotions to you, crying, questioning myself why I’m doing this. Then you start blaming me with your genius arguments while I struggle with theories.

Love begins to crumble, its sharp pieces slowly cutting me, again and again, until I wake up and curse all my nightmares about you.

‘Should I trust you? Or will I choose the wrong path in finding love?’ I ask. But the truth is, no one should trust anyone. The risks are too enormous, the cries too loud, and the disappointments too painful.

So let’s forget about trust. Let’s ignore unnecessary jealousy. Fuck everyone who mocks us for falling into the same hole again. If we break, let’s do it gently. If we build love as high as the moon, let’s lie on it, make love, and let our skin burn together.

Back to the first line, is it okay if I want to fall in love with you again? Relive every romantic journey and adore each other like in every romantic movie we watch before falling asleep. If you let me, I will take every step to be intoxicated with love for you. But remember, only if you allow me.

So that we can erase the bad things, just like every sinner does.